angst - march 27th, 2008

everything
is a reminder

the wrinkles
on the
car seat cover

the position
you changed
of the
tobacco holder
in the
living room

the streets
of rendezvous
that i
drive though
everyday


pictures hidden
in folders
not to be
uploaded for
public consumption

the chocolates
we chose
in the little
fairy tale shop

the music
you gave me
now awaits
your recognition
of the raaga
it contains

mountain dreams
of paris..
of seeing
though my veneer

you knew
didn't you..
when i would
prattle on
about little
tiny snatches
of a life
we shared..

or so i thought..

did you laugh?
pity ?
confusion ?
or..nothing ?


even now
i wonder..
i have reason not
to feel
this way
and yet..

the body weeps
for what
the mind
knows is not so..

so.. will it be ..
that i
move beyond ?
or will you
come back
before i can
harden myself ?